UPDATES:
Well, today went well! I spoke with my attorney and everything is a go!!! We will start taking action in a couple of months!!! He and I both feel very confident that things will go over well…??? But, then again…you never know with these things!!! My attorney said that I did an awesome job with gathering evidence!!! So…we will see??? I cant really say much more about it, because it is a legal issue…but PLEASE cross your fingers and toes for us!!! We need this!!! What was done to us was wrong!!! I truly do not like confrontation, but I am simply tired of mean people running over others!!! I have chosen to stand my ground, and I feel (most importantly) that I will teach my kids a lesson in life through the process!!!
Our “Mudd -Piez” are drying slowly but surely…which is a good thing!!! They are doing perfectly!!! It will just take time! Once dried, we will begin to paint them! Very exciting!!!
Tim built the “Lasagna Garden” this afternoon without us!!! I got tied up in Auburn and Cooper and I were unable to participate in building the bed!!! BUT…we have every intentions if planting seeds!!! We will probably start that sometime this weekend!!! We are going to get cups and start by seed!!! It will take around 7-14 days for the seeds to germinate!!! Once they sprout, we will plant them in the soil!!! We will probably buy some seeds for starters! We still are planning on planting seeds that we harvest from fresh veggies!!! They will be planted a little later, but no worries!!! We are definitely planting sunflowers as well! It is a MUST! Those will be fun…especially if we get the Mammoth Sunflower, which will tower over Cooper!!! He will like that!!!
Pay Day tomorrow!!! Thank GOD!!!! We are at $0.00!!! That spells, “BROKE”…! I think we did well budgeting our “pennies” this month!!! This too is a good lesson for my son to learn!!!
Tomorrow is a BIG day!!! I have my Dentist appointment!!! This appointment will basically determine how long we will be in Alabama!!! I am not leaving until I get the work done on my teeth that I need to have done!!! I cant afford it otherwise and it has to be done!!! Again, cross your fingers and toes!!!
A Couple of Stories…
Before reading any further, I have to warn you that the following material might not be suitable for some readers!!! So, if you are sensitive to certain subjects…those relating to drug addictions , sex and dysfunctional family situations…then you should stop right now!!! Hmmmm…Temptation, what a bitch!
Before I start, I have to explain a few things to you!!! My Mother abandoned my sister and I when I was just over 3 years of age and my sister almost 2 years of age! I did not have a Mother while growing up as a child! She was not apart of my life!!! This is not a sad story, just a reality! As I grew older I took it upon myself to re-unite with my Mother! I believe I was 23 at the time! Ok…so…my Mother had a lot of problems!!! She probably should have never had kids, but she did!!! Her intentions were good, but her addictions controlled her!!! She was an alcoholic and a drug user!!! She made some bad decisions in her life and paid the price for them!!! I never held any of this against her…she was human…she made a few mistakes!!! So have I, so have you…! We spoke on the phone several times before meeting in person! Keep in mind, I did not know this person!!! I didn’t even know what she looked like??? She could have been standing in front of me waiting in line at a grocery store…and I would not have known her!!! Well…she still drank heavily during this time and would call me at 3...4...5 o’clock in the mornings crying!!! She would beg for my forgiveness for abandoning my sister and I! She assured me over and over that she never, not once, stopped thinking…or loving…my sister and I! The guilt that this woman carried in her heart over the years was overwhelming to say the least! I felt sorry for her!!! One night she called me, she had been drinking…and once again started to cry!! I said to her, “Mother, if we try to make up for the 20 years that we have lost…we will always be 20 years behind!!! So…why don’t we start all over…with today!” She agreed…! So that’s exactly what we did!!! I could feel the relief in her voice…as if an 18 wheeler had drooped off her back!!! It was a new beginning…
My Mother was a fugitive…for real!!! She was a little rough around the edges, in her day, and tried very hard to hide her past…and present (at the time) from me! I, on the other hand, wanted to know MORE about her lifestyle…I couldn’t get ENOUGH of the stories that I would hear from her friends who were also fugitives (basically) who chalked everything up as “good times”…! These stories were a little “messed up”, to say the least!!! Not a lifestyle that I would choose to live…but, ARE YOU KIDDING???? I loved this shit! Who needed to rent movies??? I lived vicariously through my Mother, because…I didn’t have it in me!!! Whatever “it” was…??? They referred to “it” as “passion”…! I eventually “got it” as the years went by! After awhile, my Mother opened up to me and her true colors began to shine through!! She shared with me some of the most horrible…and I mean horrible, but funniest stories I had ever heard!!! I have to share them…
So, with all that said…WARNING…WARNING…turn back while you can, ‘cause here we go…
My Mother’s 5th husband was named…uh, lets see…we will call him Ralph!!! Ralph was a drunk, to say the least. Mother also…would have a few here and there! They shared a “love-hate” relationship!! They would fight like cats and dogs and drink until they passed out! Well, on this given day…Mother was sober, but Ralph…was not! He had passed out on the bed beside Mother! She had just bought a brand new comforter and was really pissed off that Ralph had passed out on top of it…drooling!!! While she told me this story, she said, “Leigh, I was sitting on the bed smoking a cigarette listening to Ralph snore…and all I could see was drool coming out of his mouth all over my brand new comforter. Every time I took a drag off my cigarette…I hated him more! I looked at him…then the puddle of drool…and then my cigarette…” She pauses, while recollecting the moment, and continues,”…I laid that cigarette on the comforter right beside him, thinking I could get another comforter…and then I left! I walked upstairs and waited…! I sat upstairs for probably an hour, waiting for smoke to come roaring up from downstairs, but it didn’t! I am getting impatient because I had things to do! I finally walked downstairs to see what the problem was! When I went downstairs, the cigarette had extinguished and there was a huge hole in my brand new comforter…and there was Ralph…drooling! I looked at the tag on the comforter and it said ((FLAME RESISTANT))!” She then continues, “ I was so pissed, that I slapped him on the head to wake him up!!! When Ralph woke up Mother said to him, “Get up you drunk you are drooling on the bed…and look what you did, asshole! You passed out with a cigarette and burned a hole in my brand new comforter!”
Oh yeah!!! That was my Mom!!! Okay, so she was trying to kill Ralph…basically!!! But to know my Mother and then to know Ralph…Mother couldn’t get rid of him! He wouldn’t leave! Hell, she couldn’t even kill him! I am sorry, but this story was hysterical to me!!! It is so horrible, that it is great! A classic!!! By the way, the next one is worse…! I will throw another WARNING out there…
We will call my Mothers 3rd husband Johnny, ok??? Johnny was a cocaine dealer and user…so was my Mother! This happened around Christmas. Well, Johnny dropped off Mother at the local grocery store where they lived. Johnny didn’t want to go inside because he was so high on cocaine that he thought it would be better if he went back to the house and waited an hour, then come back to get Mother after she was finished shopping! Well, Mother had finished shopping and she waited for about an hour in the grocery store parking lot for Johnnyy…and he was nowhere to be found! This was before cell phones…keep in mind!!! Mother is pissed and decides to walk home from the grocery store…buggy, food and all! She said it was about 3 miles and in December, so this was not a pleasant “walk around the park on a beautiful day” kinda’ moment!! When she got home, she walked through the front door and there was Johnny…! Johnny was standing in the kitchen bent over the counter, screwing himself with one of Mothers Christmas bells!! Yep…I warned you!!! Mother said that when Johnny saw her, He panicked and started to run down the hallway…bell and all, if you know what I mean??? Mother said, “Leigh, I was speechless!!” She said, “As if that wasn’t bad enough…when Johnny took off running, the bell was still in his ass, and all you could hear was…Jing, jing, jing…as he ran all the way down the hall!!!”
Ya know…there is a reason why I never did cocaine!!!
Mothers life was interesting to me. Even though these stories might be voted “offensive“…this was her life!!! As it is with many others, who have lived with the struggles of addiction!!! My Mother was not a perfect person, but I would not be here without her! My kids wouldn’t be here without her…for that, I love her!! As her daughter, I love her for her…she is my Mother! I appreciate her life, because it ((happened))!!! She once told me, “The only way that I can make light of some of the things that I have done, is to just find humor in it!!! Otherwise, I guess I would have just jumped off a bridge…a long time ago???” Deep within her soul, there was a song writer…a dancer…a poet…and a Mother! She just wandered off and got lost for awhile, that’s all! I am just thankful that I was able to be a part of her life when she found her way back home!!! In 2005, my Mother died of cancer! In the last four years of her life, she dedicated her life to Christianity…gave up drinking…drugs…and wrote gospel music! Some of her songs can be heard on the radio today!!!
You cant write the blues without feeling a little pain…can you??!! I guess you cant write about “Faith” until you understand what it means to have it. Well, it meant something to my Mother…and somehow, it changed her life…
You know, I am not a perfect person, nor will I ever pretend to be! I have never “candy coated” things for my kids! I would never do that to them! I would never lie to them like that…! How horrible! Just throw ‘em to the sharks why don’t ya!? Nope, we live in the real world around here…! One of my favorite all time quotes was by one of my favorite all time actresses, Susan Sarandon! She said, “One of the biggest mistakes a parent can make, is forgetting that they are not perfect…”
Well, I am not perfect…
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