Happy Valentines Day!!! Last night Cooper and I had a ton of fun! I baked a cake for the "big people" and Cooper wanted one for Valentines Day as well! So, that’s exactly what we did…we baked! Both cakes turned out beautifully!!! Cooper and I also decorated valentines cards! He did a fine job!!!
Next week is going to be a busy one! I am feeling better, so I want to try to make up for lost time!!! We have $88.00 to live off of until the first of March! That is $44.00 a week! We have lived off less…trust me! So when I say, “You dont need much to live,” it is more like, you don’t need much to survive!!! We are in survival mode right now! We are at our lowest point right now, but my plan is to get back on our feet!!! People prioritize things differently than one another! Some people believe a big house is priority over a small one! Some people believe a nice car is priority over a nice home! Some people believe that your appearance is priority over both house and car…! I prioritize health over everything!!! A healthy body, mind and soul is more important to me and my family over anything else! Because without my health, I can not give my all!!! Without (((me))), my kids would have nothing!!! And my kids are always first!!!! Today, I have to do what it takes to make sure we have what we need…and I am going to have to swallow a little pride while doing so!!!
The last time I applied for food stamps it was in 1990, when I was 22 and pregnant with my first child! I hated being on foodstamps! It was humiliating, but we needed it! I had to do it! I worked 2 jobs and I STILL qualified! Today, it is 2010...I am 42 with a 5 year old and guess what…I once again qualify!!! So, that is one of our priorities next week!!! We are going to the Foodstamp Office and we will be applying for foodstamps!!! I remind myself that we need it right now until we get on our feet!!! It will help us, and that is what it is there for! We need a little help until I can find a job!!!
Second, my house…which, is another story and too involved to go into right now! But in a “nut-shell”, the house was a verbal gift given to me 12 years ago. It is not mine, completely! It belongs to my Grandfather who told me it would be mine one day, but there are strings attached! I am responsible for maintaining the property, which I have struggled over the years to do so!!! I have done in the past and continue to do today, most of the work that needs to be done to the property!!! I can not afford to hire someone else to do the work!!! Some useful pioneering skills that I acquired from being a carpenters daughter!!! Quite frankly, the work is killing me!!! I am tired!!! Renting the house was an option I created and pursued, because I did not want to leave the house empty! The last time I left the house empty, it was vandalized!!! Some teenagers broke into the house 5 years ago and did about $10,000.00 worth of damage to the property! Renting the home is another form of income that can help us get on our feet!!! That is how we got to Atlanta to begin with…but, that is ((also)) why we had to leave Atlanta!!! If I can find tenants to rent the house, that would be great!!! But if they end up being like the last tenants who lived there, then I am left with another mess to clean up! My goal is to get out from under this house and get on our feet without being dependent on rent coming from tenants!!! But, for now…we need it!!! Even though I desperately want to be free from it!!! I would love to just walk away and say, “No thanks!“…but I cant!!! Please don’t think that I am ungrateful, because that is not the case!!! Its just that this house has controlled my life for so many years, and I simply want to be freed from it!!! Again, another story for another day…! So…I have to finish fixing the backside of the house so that I can rent it out!!! That is goal #2 for next week!!! I will keep you posted…
Okay, I am tired (still not 100%)...I will write again tomorrow!!!
It may be another snow day yet again????
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